January 06, 2015

In need of an adventure...


I am in desperate need of an adventure. 

I'm probably dealing with a bit of irregular post-miscarriage emotions, but I feel like I need to throw caution to the wind and do something a bit wild. I'm going a bit stir crazy in my daily routine. The funny thing is, there hasn't even been much of a daily routine lately. When you work in an office environment like I do, the holidays throw everything off. This week is my first "full" week in the office in about a month. But still, I feel stifled

It's not that I'm not grateful for my comfortable life or the opportunities it gives me. I am. Deeply. Truly. But I also feel as if I'm missing something grand by sitting at my desk 9+ hours each day and then going home to workout/eat dinner/watch Netflix. 
Lately, I find myself staring at our savings account online and trying to rationalize my crazy thoughts. I want to just withdraw a few grand, book a flight for Adam and I, and jet off to Oregon like we had planned to do last October. I want to leave the office behind entirely, leave the daily worries and stresses, and just have an adventure. I want to taste amazing wines and sip dark teas in a little nook of a remote cafe somewhere. I want to dip my toe into the freezing Pacific ocean and run my fingers over smooth beach pebbles. I want to go on a hike (which is sooooo not like me) and breathe in the smells of a forrest on a crisp day. I want to explore. I want to laugh. I want to feel.

But then I think of all the reasons that grand adventure can't occur just now. Adam will be starting his new job in a matter of weeks and vacation time won't be allowed for quite awhile. We need to keep adding to that savings account so that Adam can get a new car soon to replace his 15+ year old clunker. We have tons of household projects and bills that could really use the money as well. In short, there isn't time or money for the adventure I feel my soul so desperately needs.

But maybe I can find a piece of adventure closer to home to tide me over for a bit. Perhaps this coming weekend I can take a hike nearby and finish the day sipping hot tea in a local cafe. Maybe I'll break the monotony of my days by cutting out of the office for a mid-afternoon shopping break or drinks with a friend. If I can't go to have an adventure somewhere, I have to get out of this rut by creating my own adventure here at home.

So who's with me? Let's make our own adventure...

16 comments :

  1. I'm really sorry to hear about your miscarriage, I'll be keeping you in my prayers! We also really want to get out and go somewhere, but work and money both seem to prevent that. I think taking a local adventure will help, as will getting out of the office for nice lunch one day. I've already promised myself Starbucks if I can make it to Friday!

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  2. Those things all sound amazing! But you're right and you can have plenty of smaller scale adventures close to home. I'm trying to be a little more social just now, so I've signed up for a 5K, a painting with wine class, figure drawing, and a happy hour with coworkers, none of which are break-the-bank expensive. I give it about a month before I'm ready to go back to being a hermit. :P

    I hope you find something to soothe your restless spirit!

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  3. We have wonderful hiking trails up here. And I make a mean cup of coffee. ;-)

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  4. I'm all about finding your own adventure (without the expense and grandness of a trip), I mean, where do you think my blog name came from? :) Try to do one new activity every week, break out of your routines, there's something new, whether it be an attitude or experience, always waiting for you. Keep that beautiful mind of yours open. Life is waiting.

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  5. A few years ago I had that feeling before. The wondering if the daily routine of work/netflix/sleep and then doing it all over again, is all there is. I too couldn't just take off and go somewhere that would make me feel alive again so I did small things for myself. Taking time for myself isn;t something I did much of. I found you can create adventure almost anywhere.

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  6. We have been feeling this way a lot lately too. Instead of spending time with our couch and netflix, we are trying to be more intentional with relationships and other people. But working 50+ hours and week and barely getting by on my crummy salary sometimes leaves us with little options. Praying you get to have some fun this weekend!

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  7. I am all about adventures, even a little afternoon outing can do wonders! I do hope you guys get to make it to Oregon one day, my home state is pretty wonderful!

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  8. that's a tough spot and i've been there too with wanting/needing to save money for certain things. but this new and wild (and totally uncharacteristic) part of me has been saying "money is just money and i can make more of it!" time is fleeting and we can't more of that, especially for where you are both at right now.

    i hope you do find some small adventures to go on TODAY but i'm also casting a non-asked-for-vote of getting crazy, letting lose and coming to play in oregon! i live in portland and can recommend an amazing coffee shop on the coast (insomnia in cannon beach). your toes deserve to be in the frigid ocean!

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  9. Make the most of your weekends and travel locally. Its always fun and a lot cheaper, hope you find a cool adventure this weekend.
    xx, Jodi
    http://highheelsandtutus.com

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  10. I hope you find yourself something you are able to do.

    I also hope everything works out for you :)

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  11. You know, 90% of the time I believe in making the best financial decisions - saving money and not spending money you don't have. BUT, now and then, for the sake of your sanity, I think it is 100% OK to throw caution to the wind and set yourself back monetarily if it helps your state of mind. For our honeymoon, we really should have stayed close to home and not spent much, but instead we jetted off to New Orleans and I put everything on my credit card. And even though I am still paying that trip off, it's probably the best worst financial thing we've done. We had SUCH a blast together, and I really got to relax and have fun, and sometimes that is just impossible to get close to home.
    If you ever want a North Dakota adventure, we've got free room and board up herre too:)

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  12. Definitely take some time for yourself -- no matter what it takes. Sending hugs!

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  13. Sometimes, you have to find your own adventures and there can be so many of them close to home and at a cheap price. I can totally get the mind-consuming adventures too. Though I can't fully relate with what you went through, I have had some issues where I fully needed adventures. Over time, I've found a few that get me out and about and in my local area -- namely geocaching and disc golf. Both have been godsends to me, at times, because of the adventure they have created and the fun, as well. I've now done geocaching for nearly seven years and it's the one thing I can use to make me forget about things and, at the same time, have a small adventure and see other things. Photography is my other fallback.

    Find that adventure, though. I hope you do and it does what you hope it will do. (I have a Geocaching 101 series on my blog... it truly is a fun, family friendly, and at times even hard adventure that you can do for basically free).

    Come visit me! A ‘lil HooHaa

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  14. Girl I am Right there with you. I just want to get away for a few days. I just want to be anti social for a few days. I know it's not possible but I think you should do something nice for yourself.

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  15. I hear ya, I hear ya! This is a common struggle I have especially come January. My husband and I booked a cabin in the woods only 2 hrs away for the first weekend in Feb. While I daydream of West Coast excursions, etc a weekend away works for now:)

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  16. I hope you and Adam do get your own little adventure soon. I am all about adventure!!

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